Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Growing Up is Hard to Do

I cannot get this song out of my head. All I keep singing in my head "Growing Up is Hard to Do" to the tune of "Breaking Up is Hard to Do." I have a warped way of looking at things at times.

In the last month, I have had to face some difficult challenges and basically grow up. It has required that I step out of my comfort zone and face some fears which I had allowed to grow monumental in size. The first week or two of this journey, I will admit was extremely painful. I will also admit, I did not handle it gracefully. However, as the weeks have gone on, and I have stayed the course, it is amazing the feeling of freedom I am feeling. Did I mention that I don't do anger well?

So I sit here at 10:34 pm on my computer, still in the mire of this mess. Clearly not out of the woods, yet I have a sense of peace and hope. What have I gotten out of all of this? My mind reels at all the blessings that have come out of this self induced trauma.

  • My husband and I are much closer,

  • I have learned we can fight and still love each other,

  • I am facing a fear and living to write about it,

  • Our family became a more solid unit,

  • We got back to basics which included Church,

  • I found out God is patient and always waiting for us to surrender,

  • I also found out that I don't have to handle everything, (unfortunately I learned that before and forgot it somewhere along the way) and

  • Mostly I learned to be gentle with myself, ask for what I need and accept my limitations.

I just love it when a plan comes together.